
Only Don't Know
via Lion's Roar
Judy Roitman, a Kwan Um Zen master and retired mathematics professor, argues that knowing is a construction: categories, perception and language only approximate what is there, and deciding we know something is when we stop looking. Don't-know mind is not vagueness but the open, taking-it-all-in attention we were born with, and the place to rest when stuck.
- Conventional knowledge is necessary to function, but we get trapped in it and treat it as the whole of things; its base is inherently unstable.
- Perception is constructed: a frog's eye registers movement, not objects, and humans only see a still object because the eyes make tiny constant movements called saccades.
- Every 'I know what this is' closes a door. Her example: blue jeans that, enlarged on a phone, turn out to be white, black and indigo threads.
- Her practice is huatou: holding a basic question such as 'What is this?' while letting every answer dissolve, going deeper until certainty gives way.
- Don't-know mind is a newborn's looking-around attention, no preconceptions and no doors slamming shut: we were born with it, still have it, and can learn to trust it.
“However we thought it was, that’s not how it is.”
Roitman spent a career as a mathematics professor and nearly fifty years in Zen, and her point is not mystical. The feeling of knowing is something we build out of language and habit, and the moment we settle how a thing is, we stop looking at it — in her words, another door slams shut. For a plateaued performer that is the whole diagnosis: you already know how your serve, your bow arm or your opening works, so you have stopped seeing it. Only don't know is the instruction to hold the next rep as an open question rather than a settled fact.
Try this week
Pick the one skill you are surest about. For one session, treat yourself as someone who has never done it: narrate what the body actually does, step by step, as if explaining it to a beginner. Write down one thing you noticed that you knew but had never looked at.


